Random Writing.

i hate my mother for doing this to me. for making me so angry and hurt. i have never felt so betrayed by anyone before, ever. i hate her for making me hate her. i love her, but i hate her. i want her to stop blaming others for the fault of hers, how she's made me and is STILL making me so sad and angry inside. i think i want to live with my dad and lisa. i hate having to deal with being so sad all the time. i've done things that i can honestly say i regret, i want something different.

After hand, I'd like to apologize for no-capitalization, really un-professional! Also, this might sound weird, but it would make me robotic, and it would start to form into a story, which is surprisingly, NOT what I want! I'm doing free writing, so I can clear my mind easily.